1.25.2009

donuts...

for the girlies... pancakes for mommy... eggs for daddy! 
we all had different cravings this morning! 
after eating the pancakes... i thought to myself... "ugh i should've had eggs"!

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 i am curious today about something...
something that tends to roll around every so often for me.
usually tends to be when i feel overwhelmed... weary... or just plain confused.

do you ever wonder if you are on the RIGHT path?
doing what you SHOULD be doing?
there are times when i feel like i am flying by the seat of my pants.

i kind of get FROZEN!
 
there are SO many things... DIFFERENT things that need attention.
i get to where i don't even know WHERE in the world to start...
"JUST STARTING"... can seem too much...
between it all... sometimes it feels like something's got to give...
WHAT is that something?
being a freak of an A TYPE person... i don't want to let ANYTHING go! 

when things get this way... off kilter... i feel like maybe there is a REASON...
maybe there IS too much on my plate.

so much passion INSIDE... wanting to get out... but it gets SQUASHED...
squashed by important AND unimportant things.

is this a sign... is HE trying to tell me something?
or is this normal hubbub?

you wonder...
do other people feel this way too?

do you EVER feel like you have too much enchilada on your plate?
do you find your head spins ALL THE WAY AROUND sometimes?
do you think you are on the RIGHT... meandering it can be... path?

21 comments:

Honorary Indian said...

it's as if you crawled inside my head and wrote this post for me.......

we all wonder that...

at least i do...almost every single day.

you area not alone....

cling to Him....He will lead you...

at least that's what I'M trying to do!!!!!!

notevenatshirt vb said...

Yep, this is an almost daily wonder for me. Especially since losing my job a few months ago and not being able to find a new one right away. (Seriously, who would ever dream of a nurse being unable to find work?). I keep thinking, does He want me to be doing something significant right now? Is that why I have all of this time? But, days always seem to disappear into a blur of business and I never actually get to the heart of the nagging "am I doing what I'm supposed to be doing" feeling.

I get it.

LuLu said...

My mind is completely oeverwhelmed with everything needing my attention... each child is at a different stage from homework to cuddles to potty training... and my own need to be creative in the midst of all this. Always wonder if I am being selfish wanting time to find my creative outlet. Going to the commisary today seemed like climbing a mountain... i can't seem to shake my tired/distracted feeling for 3 days now.
So ready for it to go away...
LuLu

PamperingBeki said...

Donuts sound so yummy right now! :)

I think we all feel that way sometimes. You just have to have faith that you're doing the right thing.

....who knows?! said...

currently i'm not overwhelmed with tasks per se, but i am overwhelmed with ideas/dreams that seem to be clawing themselves out of me....and they all come with a price. so i wonder are they good? are they worth the cost? or is it just grand ideas....i don't know if that makes any sense at all....but anyway.....
xoxo!

Jill said...

I've been in that place all week. Choosing a kindergarten for my son has made me panic. When the babies go off to school what happens to me!
Who will I be next? I've done a lot of praying and reading and now I'm trying to wait until it all the little pieces come together and I can once again say, "Wow, God that was a much better plan than I had in mind."

MGF said...

I think that this is you checking in with yourself, to see if this is where you want to be. I think it is great to examine which way you want to head and than redirect. We all get upside down and inside out with life.

I am this way with my job which I LOVE and my day dream of being a photographer.

The White House said...

Yes. Yes, I am there right now- pretty sure that I am relating with you on this one. I ate a donut this morning, maybe that's why I feel like I am on the wrong path!

gina said...

First of all - I have to comment on those gorgeous eyes you captured. If that is all you accomplished today - that is enough. Your girls have gorgeous eyes.

You poor thing - your words make me want to cry because so many days I feel it too. There are so many GOOD things that beckon. And God whispers so softly. It is hard to know. It will come. If I were your Mom, I'd come and tuck you back in bed and make you sleep awhile. Be still and the answers will come. God be with you friend.

edie said...

Carissa,
Oh yes yes yes....I've been there.....fourteen times this morning. I think part of it for me is this time of year too...not my favorite in some ways, but then I do love the feeling of being hemmed in (since it's so cold). I'm glad to lay those burdens to God and bask in His love and grace.

Thank you so much for the live writer tip. I have a MAC and don't think it's compatible with that...maybe I'll have to get the Windows Parallel program because anything that makes my life easier is at the top of the list.

Hugs and love to you!

The Masters said...

Hey there!! New to your blog...and had to comment here....I don't know if it is the weather or what is going on, but I have been feeling exactly this way...just wrote a similar post....just feeling uuuggish...I am praying it is just a little bit of winter "cabin fever" haha....love your blog!!

carissa... brown eyed fox said...

oh Edie as i was typing that i kept thinking... "you know she could have a MAC"... and you DO! :)
i was telling my friend that we went skiing with about it... and ta-da MAC too! you MAC loving mamas!
i do believe there is a compatible program... just don't know how equal it is.
but... HELLO... sure seems to be that the pics are working out GREAT! :)

Carmen said...

Absolutely. I often think that I'm on the absolute wrong path, but then something happens and I realize I'm right where I need to be at this very moment.

Simply Me... said...

Hey why didn't you tell me you were going to write a book about my life LOL... I/we feel that way sometimes! it's not fun feeling like that... Too much on our plates Oh yeah!!! sometimes I just need to chill and I'm thinking today is one of those days :) hope you day is filled with happyness and not anything else, it can wait.
I love you girl just remember we all know how your feeling XoXo

Rachel said...

I am still trying to find my path; waiting on the "clues" or a kick in the butt!

CourtneyP said...

This happens everyday. I am a type A person myself and I am trying my best to "not sweat the small stuff"... I think in a way it is a sign from inside ourselves. We need to let ourself know that it is o.k. to not do everything. Give yourself permission to cross things off the list that are done only so so or maybe not at all.

Gini said...

Type A to Type A - yes, my friend. I feel as you feel. I have learned to just step back for a quick sec in the evening and be thankful for what I DID manage to accomplish for the day. There is a tomorrow, thank goodness. A tomorrow that will bring on the same overload, the same stress, the same unsureness. But we get it and tomorrow night will be another night to be thankful. I don't think a "path" necessarily has to be something specific. If so, I myself am just a wandering fool!

katie said...

what are you afraid of....

i feel that way too. it's usually fear.

Dancing Queen said...

wow! is this me??? have i been transformed into your head for you to write this?? love that we're not alone...now what do we do about all this stuff?

Sarah said...

Oh my word, woman. This is how I feel most days. And when I start to hyperventilate because of it, I just recite the verse, "This is the way--walk in it." Don't remember the reference, but I know God said it. And I know that He has my life planned out and I am just to take each day at a time, fulfilling my first requirements: my relationship with Him and my family. Then everything else can kind of fall into place.
(And yes, it is much easier to say than to do. but I keep saying it anyways--eventually it will overtake my life. :-)

Randi said...

I wonder that all the time but I remind myself that this is my current season in life: raising kids and helping them to walk in a relationship with Jesus. Later, my life will hold other things but right now this is probably the most important (even if it's not always the most personally fulfilling) thing I could do.