4.08.2008

standing on the promise...

First off... let me say... I am OKAY! I will be OKAY! I am a committed... stubborn... fighter! Tough as a cookie. Every once in a while I might crumble just a bit.

I just woke up the other day and wondered what had happened to ME! Inside the body that I no longer recognize... lives a woman that I want back.

I have been so busy taking care of everybody & everything else (treasured blessings & not) that along the way... I let MYSELF go. As I am typing this... I feel as though I sound selfish. Well... I might need to get a little selfish. Mama needs some balance.

I have WAY too many gifts in my life to let them spoil on the shelf. Did that make since? I want to be better. I need to be a better ME.

I will keep believing... stay tough... hang onto the promise of a brighter tomorrow! My trust is strong... my eyes are bright... my heart is eager!


To all my loved ones... you know who you are... tHaNk YoU... really! I love you too!

11 comments:

Anonymous said...

Caris,
Your words yesterday were like an alarm heard 'round the world.
Your words today are a relief.
We all love you.
Shawn L.

Gini said...

I think what you wrote yesterday, takes a lot of guts considering, I personally could never admit such a thing...out loud or in print. Unfortunately that is probably not a good thing - I too, feel all of those things sometimes. Overwhelmed, overcommitted! Thanks for having such courage to open up to everyone.

elambeachbums said...

Glad you are having a better day and that you recognize the things that you do. I think that it is good to talk about it even if it is in this form. You are such a creative and wonderful person, friend, mom, wife, sister, daughter, etc... I could keep going but might really bore some people. Keep your chin high. Love you!!! Love keeping up with your kids and you. Holley

One Wired Woman said...

I've fallen and I can't get up! Remember that commercial? Maybe we moms need one of those little alert button thingies to wear around our necks. Just push it and it blinks your friends and a margarita machine right into your living room. :) Yesterday it killed me not to be able to walk next door to check on you. Well... you have indeed picked yourself up and you are definitely a strong cookie. So proud of you. :)

Jenn said...

Hi Carissa:) I'm so happy to have found your lovely blog. As a Mom myself...I completely appreciate your honest and real words. These are things that we just have to get out once in awhile. The beautiful part is that you are honest with yourself and committed to working on a "better you"...that should be an inspiration to us all:) Have a fabulous week! xox...jenn

Gypsy at Heart said...

I should have started here I guess but I went in reverse through all of the posts I had missed while traveling. Glad to hear you are feeling better. Agree with what Jenn who did indeed find your lovely blog, said. I second the fabulous week wish.

Milena

Trish said...

I so know what you mean. I recently made some decisions to pay more attention to my soul and needs. I feel so much better you, will too. I wish I lived closer. I'd love to meet you have a warm cup of coffee and a long chat.

Melissa Ellen said...

I know exactly what you're saying. You can be OKAY and just crumble every now and then. And you're right! You need to be a tad selfish. For the record though, I think you're amazing!

Kim - ScrapToMyLu said...

I am stunned, but I understand those feelings. I think your photo is amazing. You look very cute and hip.

Jessica said...

you are so talented......remember that!

Jennifer said...

Your feelings are so normal. Us moms don't focus on ourselves enough that is my business, trying to change that. Spend some time on you, it is okay!
HUGS
Jennifer